~Casualeio

My uncle has died. but it's not so simple to say I'm sad. I'm not going to go through the entire story because I don't want all of my families problems on the internet and i also don't know the entire story. But he and my grandmother had a falling out and I haven't seen him since I was a baby. My brother saw him a few years ago ata football game but he wasn't very peppy about it. My Grandmother passed away in 2001, God rest her soul, and I was sure he'd come to teh funeral. He didn't. Before then I hadn't really thought much of him but that he was rude for what eh did, but after that I was mad at him. He didn't show to hsi own mothers funeral, regardless of what might have happened I would come to my mothers funeral even if I had be legally restrained. And now he's dead. I feel bad but I don't know if I should feel sad. I don't remember what he looked like and I honestly don't remember him all teh time when I think of my aunts and uncles. It's an odd sensation to realize I felt worse when a student I hardly knew, but saw more than him, died earlier this year. I didn't know if I shoudl go to my mother and tell her I was sorry. I don't even know what she feels right now. I'm sad he ahd died but I'm not really shook up about it. He was also the only full brother of my mom, again my family is sort of complicated don't make me get into it, and I don't feel any connection to him. I am not heartless, I hope you don't read this the wrong way. When my grandmother died I was crushed, and I worry about my grandfather all the time and the same with my uncles and aunts.
I guess I just feel betrayed by him, he didn't do anything to me but I guess I was brought up not to like him very much. Will I even go to the funeral? Will my family go? If I do what will I say to an aunt I've never known and cousins who are strangers? What can I do?